Life is wonderful!

November 24th , 2010!

Jessica Teles is actually 20 years old! WOW! HAHAHAH

Today I woke up more happier than never. Jess, are you happy cause is your Bday? My answer is: Not only for that!

I am happy cause I'm grateful for EVERYTHING that happened on my life.

EVERYTHING!

A lot of people (MAINLY MY PARENTS!) don't know a part of my life, but when I was a child I suffered Bullying at school.... some children called me words that makes me down, after this things I became a sad girl and cried for anything.

Until 13 years old I was like this way... Had moments I thought that I never will gonna dating... I thought no boy would look at me and say : "You're beautiful!". And do you know who helped me?

JESUS!

HE gave me strange of volition to win my sadness!

One day I decided not be what the people said to me. I said with myself: "YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL AND ALL YOU'LL REALIZE ALL YOUR DREAMS! LOVE YOURSELF!"

L-O-V-E! This four letters transformed my life. After that day, I've become a new person. I just cry when I'm really really sad or HAPPY!

And today I cried of happiness. My family sang me "Happy Birthday to You!" on the phone, it was the most beautiful thing and the better gift that I could received this day.

But, I received a big surprised when I arrived at living room... When I took my Notebook had under an Jason Mraz's Album (WSWDWST) My awesome housemate Lais gave me... Dude, I laughed and cried at the same time....

HAHAHAH

So, first of all I want to say THANK YOU!

Thanks to all the people that said bad things to me when I was only a child

Thanks for everything word that got me down

Thanks to each tear some people made me criying.

But, above all.

Thanks to my real friend that me gave me a lot of happy moments

Thanks to my PARENTS having educated me, gave me LOVE and taught me being a good person!

Thanks to my brothers: Johnny, Luke and Luanna to each smile and moments that I'll never forget

Thanks to the friendship! My friends on MSN, Orkut, Facebook and Twitter, you shows me that friendship already exists!.... I loved your messages guys!

Thanks my boyfriend who made to see I am beautiful and loved!

Thanks my new friends: Lais, Jaque, Emily, Yasmin, Juliana, Mel, Pedro, Nicole, Mari, Daniel, Bruno, Gabizinha e Aymée!!! You guys kills me to laugh and get funniest my days!

And.... Thanks Jesus cause all what happened with me is cause You wanted that I was teach with troubles. I LOVE YOU, MY FATHER AND I KNOW THAT YOU ALSO LOVE ME!

How Jason Mraz says: "They shaped my life, who made me love who I AM TODAY!"

Being fresh and Love!

Happy Bday to me!

J.

P.S.: Oh, thanks you who is reading this post!

Woulda, coulda, shoulda

Doubts... damn.

Actually I have had many doubts about my life and my new mood of life. Will be Am I doing all right? Life is difficult, but is more difficult that the people can imagine.

I thinking about this question: WHY ONLY WOMEN SUFFER WITH DOUBTS? DOESN'T MEN HAVE DOUBTS?

If has a party, the first thing that a girl thinks is... "What clothes can I wear?" "Damn, I need a new pair of shoes!! NOT! I'll wear that black shoes my mother gave me on my BDay.... If I don't change my mind..."

It's complicated... Since when we still was in our mother's belly we're A DOUBT! For some mommys, the big doubt is if the baby will be a girl or a boy, after her new problem is what name she'll to choose... but the worst is when the Big Doubt is If she (mom) to want having her baby. It's sad, but it's true...

Everyday and everywhere the doubts are around of us, sometimes it can make a big difference in the future... the strangest is that we don't have super powers to know the results of the options that we can choosing... I'd like that! Everything would be easier and who knows the doubt am I WOULD BE A END? God... I don't know what to do!

When I started writing this post I thought I'd get better and maybe I'd decide what I do. But, I was wrong... the doubt keeps growing on my thoughts and it's going get until I-DON'T-KNOW-UNTIL-WHEN!

Well... while I am of this way I hope that you don't being like me...

Doubts is so important in our lives, without it life wouldn't get make sense.

So, I'm going...

I hope you had liked of my post. It was confuse... I know... But If I hadn't in doubt, I wouldn't write a confuse post about what is happening to me!

See y'all!

Love and Happiness in ur life! (No doubt, sure!)

J.